Clearing some mental space

Its been about a month now since I started uni and its been the most eventful month of my life. I'm couping at the moment and eventually I'll get use to it but so far I'm finding it difficult to keep up with student life, I think its because I took a year out. In that year life was simple, I would wake up, go to work, finish, go out etc. I had a routine everything was perfect, so perfect I didn't even wanna meet a girl cause I thought that would mess up that perfect little world I was living in. Now everything thing is random, anything can happen there is no routine, in a way its good because life isn't predictable and its more fun but I like to feel like I've got my life in control. But like I said I'll get use to it........

The other think I wanted to write about is the recent affairs with a girl I met. This girl is so beautiful and when I was seeing I had such a good time, BUT I felt I had to call it off. I realized she only wanted me as someone on the side, a bit of fun cause I could only see her when it suited her. To cut a long story short I feel calling it of was the right thing to do because we both want different things, for her a bit of fun but I wanted to have someone there when I needed someone to hold a lasting relationship nothing serious cause we are both busy. But at the same time I still wish it lasted longer even if it couldn't go any further, she had perfect personality and she is one of, if not the most beatiful girl I've even seen. I just have to get use to the fact that I may never see her again and that she will meet someone else if she hasn't already. Still I have no hard feeling towards her because she brought back some excitment and I can understand she has just move up here so she isn't really gonna jump into anything, I wouldn't either if I was in her position. I just hope she will always remember me, because I'll never forget her..........